A question for between classes. Fear, sadness, and depression are constant visitors that the Protector keeps trying to push away. The first time Coly had me (Megan) practice just sitting with and being present with anxiety, I felt such peace. I notice though, that as those similar parts keep coming up again, there is another part that keeps saying, "We've already dealt with you. There is no more time. Hurry up and get better." Because my Protector doesn't completely trust the Conductor, the Protector feels better hearing from anyone outside of the self (ei Coly) and wants to know if it's ok to not only invite the sad, fear, depression in, but is it ok to invite them in to stay forever?" That's what the Conductor feels is the right thing to do, but the Protector fears that by inviting those selves in to stay indefinitely- if not forever, they will painfully plague Megan forever.

Megan,
If your ".. Protector doesn't completely trust the Conductor..." I would suggest having your Conductor cultivate a relationship with your Protector to help build that trust in the same way the Conductor would acknowledge, honor, and embrace the selves the Protector has been protecting all your life. Keep in mind the Protector has been there from the beginning and it 'trusts' in itself and the protective programs that have been in place way before the Conductor showed up. The Conductor wants to become friendly with the Protector....the Conductor needs to connect with and open it's heart to the Protector...acknowledging it for it's hard work and dedication...it wants to be assured the 'selves' it's been protecting are in good hands and needs to feel the Conductor's presence and goodness for itself to feel safe and secure enough to trust it. The Conductor is there to help the Protector, to be its friend, not take over it's job.

Yes, that's what I need to do. Thank you. I'm working on moving myself myself away from the place of hopelessness so that I can muster up the energy to work with those two parts, but I guess I should embrace and extend love to the hopelessness first. Feels like a catch 22. I guess I will just roll with it. Embracing the "stuck" self now too. It's ok to feel stuck.